November

7/11/11 - Its been such a long time since I went to the park to run.  I went today, it felt so good.  It was a bit chilly but as long as I keep moving, I don't notice it too much.  I had a really good time.  I saw a seagull for the first time in this particular park.  I always see crows and parrots, but today, a solitary seagull flying in circles near a solitary tree at the base of a hill.  I was thinking about my plans to discard my tangled web, and start anew, and that's when I saw it.  I knew that it was a message from the heavens telling to me to keep it moving.  I will, even though its so hard to let go.  Even harder after I saw the swan couple in a part of the park I seldom venture (because its always full of people).  They made me think about love.  And the variety of ducks they warned to get out of their way as they swam along the stream.  Ducks are generally monogamous for the year. 
"Swans form socially monogamous pair bonds that last for many years, and in some cases these can last for life.Modern genetic techniques are starting to reveal that 'divorces' are more common than previously thought, as is mating with other swans outside of the social pairing, without breaking the social pair bond." 
As I ran around the pond a flock of parrots flew overhead making a ton of noise.  I looked up to see a white crane flying amongst them.  Two of the larger species of ducks seemed to respond to their ruckus with a few reprimanding quacks. 
I went to go check if the roses were blooming, don't recall seeing any. However I was distracted when I saw some people pulling something off the tree. I thought they were picking the leaves off, and I wanted to know what it was called and what they would use it for.  A woman pointed out that there was green fruit on the tree, that I hadn't noticed before.  She said that they weren't ripe yet, that it was a tropical plant that she didn't know the name of. 
Then there's my favorite...Cats, they were all orange and white, there is one with a single black patch over its eye.  There was a whole family of about 10 - 12 close to the park entrance as I exited, lounging on the grass.  Maybe they had just finished eating.  There is an elderly woman that comes to bring them food sometimes.  There was one cat escaping from inside the bathroom I as I rounded the corner, a man was at the door, as if he'd just chased him away. 
Lastly, a fly has been buzzing around me room all day, it seems that its following me around my little area.  Flies get caught in webs, so maybe its also beckoning me to keep it moving.
13/11/11 - There's this tree in the garden, with this red fruit on it.  I don't know what type of fruit it is.  It starts off green then it turns yellow and then red.  Its small, a little bigger than a cherry, with a texture which from a distance looks like mini bubble paper.  Well this tree also has green flowers.  It is filled with huge hairy bees, the ones with the white butt.  They are so loud, and their tongues are so long.  I always stop to check them out.  There is a rose growing in the shadows in the garden.  Its been about three weeks now, and it still hasn't opened.  It looks healthy, with a very beautiful bright red color.  I told it not to worry and that god loves it very much.  
14/11/11 - I was looking at flowers in the park.  They are such beautiful creations.  I bet god likes flowers more than he likes us.  There are so many different varieties, and if you study them, there are so many details that would go unnoticed at first.  Some of the flowers seem to have no smell, but I speculate that they all do, and perhaps my senses are not sharp enough to detect it.  
15/11/11 - I made myself a cup of tea with milk and honey.  There was a fly buzzing around my cup while I sat in front of the computer screen.  Then he was gone, I looked in my cup and saw it floating in my tea.  I felt bad for it and scooped it out, and was surprised that it was still alive.  It sat on the table by my computer drying off.  Then crawled over and around my computer for about an hour.  At one point I left the room and when I came back it was sitting so still on my computer that I thought it had died.  I couldn't believe that I got choked up.  I became sad at the thought that the fly died... I called out to it, asking it if were still alive, and then I was relieved when it responded by moving its legs... I can't help but think that perhaps I'm like an insect too, and that there's some creature much greater than me that looks out for me. As above, so below...

28/11/11 - When I came home a morning dove flew down and perched in the fig tree, the same tree that the hoopoe was caught in when there was a net placed over it.  I took that as a great sign for my plans on moving and restarting my life.  Its time.

October

1/10/11 - I was taking out my braids, a laborious task, and while I did I watched a lizard bathe in the sun, hunt successfully, and enjoy his meal.  He then began to scale a tree. I wondered if he was conscious that he was going up a tree, I mean, if he had intent.  Was there a reason he went up that tree?  Then I watched a fly crawling through the grass, and I wondered if there was a reason he wasn't flying.  Then I wasp did the same thing.  Why crawl when you can fly?  Or is it necessary to crawl sometimes?  
2/10/11 - Today I woke up at 5:30 am.  A tenant had called me about some running water outside that was keeping him awake.  I went outside only to discover there was nothing I could do about it, because it was coming from the yard of the neighbors.  As I stepped out the house a big bright orange ball fell through the sky.  It was amazing.  Then I went into the kitchen to make myself some tea, and I stepped outside and there was this star.  The star was so bright, then it got brighter, and then quickly dimmed and disappeared.  That was incredible!  The same black bee came back to the same tree today.  He only goes to the lemon tree.  In fact I never saw him in the garden before until that particular lemon tree began to flower.  There are four varieties of citrus fruit growing in the garden, though I thought they were all limes, because they were green and shaped like limes, but my boss told me that there are lemons and mandarin oranges.  A parrot flew by this evening.  His call was shrill, long and haunting.  I never heard a parrot shriek like that, it left me with an ominous feeling, before my optimism settle back in.
11/10/11 - I haven't been going out much lately.  Mostly because it became a little cold and I've been extremely lazy.  There is a fly that's been in my room for the past two days.  He keeps buzzing around me and landing on me.  I wonder why he's here.  Is he telling me things are going to get better?  I hope so, because they've been okay, but I've been believing they will improve.  Something's got to give. 
I was sitting outside today, enjoying the sun and grass.  A lizard was sitting beside me soaking up the sun.  I noticed him and decided that I should soak up the sun too.  Then I moved to get into a more comfortable position and the lizard ran away.  I realized that he didn't have to change positions to move, he was already ready, and that I too, should always be in a position to quickly move to safety.  He came back, and crawled towards me, then under my legs, then he turned around to face me like he was watching me watching him.  I got a good look at him, so I think if I see him again I'll know its him.  A butterfly flew very close by my face today.  I like when animals and insects come really close to me, because it makes me feel like I fit into the environment.  They don't see me as something to avoid.
16/10/11 - I was surprised to see that roses continue to bloom into October.  They are so beautiful.  The petals of a rose are something truly divine.  The different scent of each variety is something worth exploring.  Right now there are two types of roses blooming in the garden.  There are these pale pink roses with a light innocent smell.  Then there are these dusty pink roses, with this heavy sweet acidic aroma.I joke that the pale pink roses are the virgins and the dusty pink roses just got some for the first time.  
17/10/11 - Today in the park there were lots of cats.  I love orange and white cats.  I saw a bunch of parrots congregate in a tree bare of its leaves.  They were making lots of noise.  I noticed that some of them had blue tail feathers.  I hope to find a feather like that for my eagle friend. 
18/10/11 - I went running in the park again today.  I would like to make it an everyday thing.  Discipline.  I was kind of amazed at how many flowers continue to bloom, while other plants are losing their foliage.  It was pretty neat.  In NY everything dies in the fall, except for evergreens.  In Florida, plants bloom all year round.  Here, some plants die, some continue to bloom.  Its a very pleasant thing to see.
19/10/11 - In the park I found a giant ant nest.  I noticed it because I could hear buzzing.  When I knelt down to examine it I saw winged ants.  They were doing all the buzzing.  They reminded me of unnecessary bosses, flying around awkwardly and without purpose other than to exert their own authority, making a bunch of noise about nothing, while the worker ants scurry about ignoring them.  Maybe they do have a purpose and I'm just irritated with my boss :) Back at home there was a wasp flying nearby, then she took a break and sat quietly on a leaf, while I watched her.  I wondered if she was watching me.  She moved her antennae as I watched her sleek yellow and black body.  They have amazing anatomy.  Brown wings similar to the flying ants.
21/10/11 - You know where I be!  I was running in the park, today there was a black cat sitting at the entrance when I entered the park.  It wasn't The Panther, this one was younger.  Then I noticed that the park was filled with kittens.  They were all over the place, doing acrobats and running to and fro.  They were adorable to watch.  I wanted to take them all home with me.  I think next time I'll bring them some food, and perhaps they'll let me pet them.  Parrots always get my attention in the park, mostly because I'm always drifting away with my thoughts.  What do I think about?  The only thing that matters to me in the world, LOVE! There was a dog wandering around sniffing at the ground.  I thought he was lost, and was searching for his owner, he was looking around and I suggested he keep his nose to the ground.  It made me think about the five senses, and the extra ones.  Again today, I marveled over the flowers that continue to bloom despite how cold it is.  Its really nice to see the deep hues of red, purple and blue, and bright yellows amidst the decaying leaves and fading grass. When I left the park a young orange and white cat had taken the place of the black cat.  
26/10/11 - Roses are continuing to bloom all over the garden.  I found a beautiful bright red rose beginning to open its petals.  I can't wait to smell it when its fully open.  I noticed that there were no bees and wasps today, not even a fly.  Perhaps because it was raining earlier, but the garden seemed kind of strange without them.  I did see some weird big mosquito type animal while I was examining the bushes, I didn't get a good look at it, it moved away so fast, now that I think of it, it could have been a spider.  I saw a black beetle crawling on the wall today. There have been landslides, hurricanes, floods and earthquakes tearing things up lately, in close sequence, its kind of ominous, especially with the alignments coming up.  I feel changes inside of me, spiritual and emotional changes inside myself as well, I wonder if other people feel it too.
29/10/11 - There was a moth in my bedroom.  She stayed on the wall for a few hours and when I opened the do,or she flew out of my room. I think she was telling me to fly away as well.  I smelled a beautiful pink rose today, the soft yet heavy fragrance makes me think of love.  The red rose, still hasn't fully bloomed. The park is filled with rose bushes, I never noticed them until now.  They are all beginning to bud.  I can't wait to see when they open.  In the park I smelled laurel, but I didn't find the plant, I have to look it up to make sure I know what I'm looking for. 

August - September

These are my numerous observations of animals throughout the months of August and September.


August

6/8/2011 - I laid in a patch of purple blossoms and watched the bees flying from each one. There were two types of bees, hairy ones and teeny tiny smooth ones. I fell asleep in the grass as they buzzed around me.
6/8/2011 - I was meditating when I looked up and saw a solitary pink rose blossoming on a vine covered wall. I thought about love, and then a bat began swooping low over the pool. Two bats flew in swooping patterns over the pool, probably catching bugs. I found a dead dragonfly in my bathtub.

6/8/2011 - giant shiny blue/black flying beetle flying close to the garbage cans while I cleaned up angry, after my boss yelled at me.
6/8/2011 - shiny green beetle sitting on the ledge of a vine covered archway where I sat to draw flowers, blue/black flying beetle again today buzzing around the same spot as I drew a picture.
11/8/11 - mosquitoes have been driving me crazy for the past two weeks. while I was on the computer today one was feeding on my left pointer finger. I swatted at it and it continued whining around me. It prompted me to look up mosquitoes, and then she magically went away. I found out some interesting facts. Mosquitoes are eaten by dragonflies, dragonflies are eaten by bats... go figure.

13/8/11 - I saw a pheasant for the first time. It flew up into a tree when I arrived. I was talking about something that I wanted, but in a tone of dissatisfaction with what I already had. Then I got something close to what I wanted, and I felt ungrateful. I prayed to the great spirit/universe to forgive me and a grasshopper landed on my shirt, and then hopped away.
14/8/11 - While driving through the country side with my boss I saw turtle doves. I was very delighted because I don't see them in the city.
16/8/11 - I saw a hoopoe. There is a fig tree in the front yard with a net draped over it, the hoopoe was caught in the net, but he made his way out of it.
22/8/11 - The bats put on a show for me this evening. It amazes me how close they fly next to me. Inches away from where I'm standing. I feel like they acknowledge that I acknowledge them.

Hoopoe

23/8/11 - I saw a hoopoe fly over my head this morning. Before that I saw a turtle dove perched on a lamp. Every day I see swallows doing aerial acrobats. I wasn't sure what they were called, and today I thought while I was watching them that if I didn't find out the name of them they would feel neglected.
24/8/11 - a cute little green caterpillar was crawling on my shoe today in the park while I was stretching. He was the sweetest most innocent looking thing. A woman with her baby was feeding crackers to turtles, and they ate them excitedly, I would have never thought that turtles liked crackers. Pigeons sat together in the grass, I thought they were all females because of their size and the shapes of their bodies, but I could definitely be wrong. I asked the parrots for one of their feathers today. There's a bunch of them in this one spot before I arrive at the park they're always making so much noise, today I told them they sound like monkeys. Those aren't the same ones I asked for feathers, I asked the ones in the park for those. I saw a bunch of crows gather to feast on something, I think it was bread, I watched them flying away with something white hanging from their beaks. There's a moth sitting in front of me on the wall, I think she's watching me talk to myself about the feelings of love and fear that I have for my eagle friend.
25/8/11 - I went outside, at my favorite time of day, sunset, and watched the swallows perform their show. I was thinking about people who annoy me, and mosquitoes buzzed around me. Then I thought about their good qualities, and a crow flew overhead, silently. Then I thought maybe I already love them, and they already love me and two turtle doves appeared sitting on the lamp overhanging the wall covered with vines.
27/8/11 - a mosquito bit me on my lip while I was sleeping, it woke me up. I killed that sucker, and splattered my blood all over the wall. I killed another the day before, and I felt such a great sense of satisfaction. I hate that I let them bother me so much, but they are so annoying! Why not just silently bite me and get it over with? Is it really necessary to buzz in my ear letting me know it's going to happen?

September

1/9/11 - While I was helping out my boss I saw this strange insect, it hopped and fell back into the grass and then it flew into a tree. I opened the glass doors and on the window shade was a lady bug, it made me feel very joyful. I was thinking about how marvelous it was that I maintained my good mood throughout the day, and I stepped outside to answer the door and a hoopoe flew over my head, it made me even happier.
4/9/11 - I was upset because I felt like me eagle friend was avoiding me. A fly came to sit on my lap and I told him all about it. He sat and listened to every word, and then flew away shortly after I finished speaking. While at the beach I was standing next to a canal. There were rocks at the bottom and I saw about five crabs climbing on the rocks. They were the same color as the rocks so it was hard to see them at first. A white crane flew overhead as I left the beach to return to the center of Naples. Pigeons stalked the beach all day and sea gulls flew silently in the sky. I thought about my eagle friend the entire day.
12/9/11 - A parrot's call first thing in the morning. Lizards darting to and fro while I did my chores. While I was sweeping there was something small and dark on the ground, as I swept it up I saw the mental image of a wasp lying on its side. When I looked down there was in fact a wasp there. It was lying on its side, curling up, its legs in a flurry. It was dying. I felt bad because I thought I had killed it, but then I remembered what I saw in my head, he had been dying beforehand. I swept around him, and he did die. I came back later to place him in one of the potted plants. A bat let out a shrill loud call as it swooped down to take a drink from the pool.

13/9/11 at this very moment while I'm typing a fly is buzzing around me. He's crawling on my skin, in my hair and in my face. I feel like he's playing with me. I fancy it's the same fly I saw earlier. I got a good look at him because I was talking to him, and he flew away when I started complaining about my eagle friend. His body was narrow and his head smaller than I've seen on my most flies. He keeps crawling on my right hand. This morning I found a spider's web in this bush with bluish black berries. It was very intricately draped over and around the berries like a canopy. I was impressed. I didn't see the spider though. Today while I was meditating on lessons of forgiveness and working to refocus my energy a hoopoe flew overhead.
14/9/11 - Parrot's call first thing in the morning as I was distracted, falling into the same pattern of thinking I don't receive enough. She snapped me out of it, and I meditated on the beauty and unconditional loving of motherhood, and reminded myself that I am PMSing. A beautiful small black and white bird was trapped on the patio. She kept trying to escape but instead continuously collided into the plastic canopy. I was just happy it wasn't glass. I knelt beside her and watched the rapid thumping her of heart in her small chest. She was so beautiful. I wanted to touch her, but I was afraid that that racing heart would explode in her chest if I did. I opened the door, then went to the other side of her, and slowly inched towards her, without looking at her. She began to move away from me and then finally flew away once she saw that the door was open.
15/9/11 - I went to the park today. While I was walking there was this bug that jumped, and then flew, I think it's a grasshopper. I just read about locust/grasshoppers and it blew my mind, I didn't know it was the same insect undergoing transformation due to overcrowding. That is brilliant! A single parrot flew overhead screeching. After my jog, while I stretched under a tree, a wasp buzzed around me, it kept landing on me and crawling on me, which was so weird, I never had a wasp crawl on me before. Its presence felt very loving and I told it I love him.

17/9/11 - I was jogging in the park and I came across these giant aloe plants completely covered in spider webs. It looked like a whole spider community could live there, but I didn't see any spiders, only dead bugs. There were so many cats in the park today. When I was leaving there was a giant black cat close to the exit of the park, he was just sitting there looking like the boss, it made me think of a panther.
18/9/11 - This morning, the first thing I saw when I woke up was a giant moth. She was beautiful. She was trapped in the plastic canopy like the bird was. This time I just watched. She kept moving towards the source of light and pausing. It seemed like she was confused at first but as she got closer she grew calmer, until she finally flew free. Che bella.
23/9/11 - A white moth on the wall when I was fixing up the rooms. I blew at it to see if it was alive. It was. Later, at night, I went downstairs for water, and there was a huge dark brown/black moth on the table, facing the direction of the door (North). It was just sitting there, just like the previous. They're telling me to still myself so I can feel what's going on around me.

 25/9/11 - I was walking in the park and I noticed crickets hopping around on the trail in front of me. One stopped right in front of me. I bent down to have a closer look at it. He was beautiful. Especially his legs. There was a sliver of green under his wings and I was wondering if he was a grasshopper who had turned into a locust. When I thought that I heard a chirping noise. To my right was a green cricket, that answered my question, they were clearly different. He was sitting on a stalk of grass. I put my face close to him, and we watched each other. When I moved my face to the left he moved his whole body to the right, and vice versa. I spent a good two minutes doing. The cricket was silent and stayed in the same spot. I ran around the park and stopped in the grass under a bunch of pine trees. A cricket leaped from the ground into my face. While I stretched flies crawled on me drinking my sweat. I returned to that same spot from earlier and the cricket was still there. I wanted to pick him up, but thought it was disrespectful. I held my hand out to it and it just sat staring at me. Then when I moved my hand, he hopped away, startling me. After I noticed a tree that seemed to have fallen over. I wandered over to it and there was this large very beautiful orange and white cat sleeping underneath. I watched him sleeping, and he partially opened his eyes, I thought he was looking at me, but he must have been still sleeping, because suddenly he jumped up and took cover under the branches and watched me. I left him alone and tried climbing on top of a palm tree with its head cut off. Then I examined different types of plants that had aerial seeds. When I was leaving the park there was the large black panther cat again, sitting in the same spot, an elderly lady acknowledged him, and so did I. As I exited the park there was a slender orange and white she cat, she was really cute.

28/9/11 - I was touring the garden and I came to a flowering lime tree. Previously I didn't know it was a lime tree, until I saw the little lime buds growing. As I sat by a more mature lime tree a giant bee-like insect appeared. It was huge, black with iridescent blue wings. I was amazed and crept in for a closer look at this magnificent creature. I just thought that every day I see lizards scurrying about, and I never give them mention. I wonder what they do for the winter.